Toxic Frequency

When you're angry...

2010-02-02T19:21:00.000-08:00

Anger is a drive to inflict damage in whether in words, physical or both...after losing the control of one's own temper.

Who doesn't get angry?

Its just so whether we have the pokerface or not.

We still taste the acidic anger in our heart.

It relinquishes logic, surpasses understanding...

procreate own reasoning for destruction.

Un-proudly I admit

I am one of the worse when it comes to anger.

But what makes us different... from those hot-headed-red-necks type?

How can we stand out ?

Is there ever gonna be some guidelines?

Sure there is...

But if there are steps in getting your grip..

The questions remains...

Are we willing?

Or do we want to gratify our fiery anger to be satisfied??

Isn't easy to just shout or whack at the one who pissed at you??

Our natural response would do just that... regrettably, I have failed many times as I can remember. But why do we get angry?? There are many reasons why we do get angry.

To list just a few.

We get angry when somebody said something that is not in their place to say.

When there is bombardment of nuisance & interference on what we plan to do/achieve.

When somebody cannot see what we see and therefore lead to an argument, and perhaps resentment.

What will happen if anger stays in our heart or mind?

What will we usually do about it?

People usually will either shout-out, suppress, or forgive & forget about it (obviously the third one seems to be the most difficult).

People who shout it out immediately when their fuse are fried, will usually result in immediate distance with the other.

Some may suppress it (this is VERY HAZARDOUS and the worse of all), causing an accumulation effect that will in time - be an eruption, cuz finally when you reach a limit... it will be inevitable that you will be compelled to be like an exploded volcano. May even cause serious psychotic acts that nowadays you hear a lot in the media. Mother and daughter got splashed with acid... a little girl get ripped into pieces by mom and her boyfriend... Mom set her son's friend on fire.... and the toll continue...

Forgive & forget as for the third, hahaha... God has a lot to work on us folks... :-)

Anger leads to...

What will happened if anger is not handled quickly and effectively?

It will actually lead to bitterness, resentment, then rage, revenge, and finally.... cold blood.

But God did taught me a few stuff on handling my own anger, some jeez of what other 'overcomers' learned and shared.

1. Always predict wat they gonna do to piss us off, then always tell ourself to remain calm when others act as we hv predicted.

2. When there is anger in us, FOCUS on the problem-solution instead of THAT person who needs to change. (Stephen R. Covey)

3. If u really cannot tahan and cant carry out 1. & 2., shut up, and walk off. Better to walk off than to say or do something which u'll regret later. (less impulse)

4. Gather our forces. Know whos and whos-not on our side, tell the leader privately about the situation with LOGIC (outspoken&daring)... let our forces support our sayings, let the leader confront the person(group).

5. Always try to UNDERSTAND the way they act. Because ppl act the way they do, based on what experiences they had in the past (bondages, childhood etc...)

6. Look past them...and just put effort (daring) in writting a simple card/note to the troublemaker, thanking them how much they have 'shaped' and 'helped' u grow, besides... it is them tat God has placed them in our lives to piss us off so tat we may be even better in our anger mgmt, so thank them!! And see how they respond to u.

But you can only do all of these IF you are willing to do the RIGHT thing.

Ofcoz, there is no 'only' ways, we may discover more along the way.

Our paradigm needs to be right, which is... the people around us have flaws, that pisses us off ...

but never forgetting that we have our own flaws that pisses others off too. So let us be more humble... If we don't put effort, we can't expect others to put effort in us as well.

I am still not saying that its easy, its NEVER. But... it can still be done!!!

Teachability is priceless .... cuz life is full open lessons ready to be taught to us.

21-01-10

2010-01-21T03:02:00.000-08:00

Hey everybody!!!

Wow its been quite awhile since I've blogged.

Well... i guess i should be able to startup again then.

Just to share some stuff with you guys

God have been putting me on a very fast pace life since last year.

After my college on August '09, my dad placed me on an independent mode.

(Meaning, i hv to start working & earn a living)

So therefore, right after my college, i took my 2 weeks rest.

And went out for a search for a job.

I got myself into an interview with Priority (logistics comp).

But after the interview, they did not respond like they promised.

So in desperate situation, I joined and worked for Starbucks.

Yeap you heard it all right!!

When i join Starbucks, on the first week,

Priority called me up for a 2nd interview

...God's hand allright!!

At the same time, i've decided to cut my campus ministry

cuz my shift clashes together.

But anyway...

I went for the interview and got a job which i've been studying all along.

At first i lost hope in getting the job,

but somehow God has his ways... I was totally so blessed.

Which means... i had 2 jobs... (*panting* now).

One at Starbucks, another at Priority.

2 JOBSS!!!!

I was so tired during that period... but anyhow i called my superior in starbuck

about the job in prirority.

Tended my resignation... which i hv to endure 2 more weeks (advance).

And wahlah!! Here I am... in Priority working full time..

But seriously, God has been teaching so many things

that i can't learn during ministry (its...different).

I can't really share major details here..

But its just a brief news about what happened to me for the past 10 months.

Job: Distribution trainee (Trucking Dept)

Ministry : only Worship Team

Income: ...its good. :-)

But it was traumatic for me to actually transition

from a teen ... to a young adult

working to feed myself

but... you know wat... God is awesome!!!

He carried me through... (still is)

the times when i thought i m 'finished'!!

All glory goes back to Him.

(And i gotten fat now...oh crappp!!!!)

Anyway... just a brief... sharing...

There is so many things to share

I guess later then...now tat i hv to go.

But really sometimes i wonder

... is someone out there listening?

God's Will - Campus mnistry

2009-02-03T19:16:00.000-08:00

1stly, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog for a LONG time now.

Many things had happened and is happening in my life. Had a great but tiring December, and did a an XCTS dance for Xmas.

Not to mention a better January especially when I’ve got to get together with my family in full after a long time ago. Started my internship in PPC (Penang Port Comission) on 12/01.

Here’s a little something for a starter/warm up for me.

I’ll be involving in a new ministry called the Frontliners campus ministry purposed solely to reach out to those who are in form 6s, colleges, and universities. As ofcourse, to provide a transitional link between youth and young adults.

Actually it used to be in the youth ministry, gathering together as a cellgroup only.

After that, it was dissolved.

The leadership of the Frontliners Youth have decided to launch campus ministry headed by Wai Wai, Steven, and the ex-SWAT (Serving while A Teen, in which im no longer a teen…).

The leadership sees a great need as we need to cater a ministry that is of relevance to the campus group. And have recognized that Frontliners Youth can no longer (never had) cater for the campus group.

We need a ministry that is more specific and relevant to the campus and slowly when they (we as well) leave campus, they will be encouraged to continue in young adults.

Through my own observation and a few others, hopefully everyone’s as well, many who have grown out of youth (as in secondary school) did not really join the young adults, this shouldn’t happened.

Everyone has all kinds of seasons of life.

Kindy, primary, secondary, f6, col/uni, work, girlfriend, wife, marriage, children, middle age, growing into ‘ultimate maturity’, grandchildren, give angpau, so on and so forth….

In all kinds of seasons, there is all kinds of specific needs, problems, experience, maturity, perception, and attitude. Each has its own pros and cons.

But anyway, you all get my point!

The thing is that I used to think that my only ministry that God have called me in my whole life is the Worship Ministry. And have struggled since recently why my life is not working in its maximum potential and got frustrated about it and have lost interest in many things, particularly in reading my bible, maybe it did like 2 yrs ago, but not this time.

I’ve realized that God has a new calling in my life apart from worship which is even bigger and more diversified. And that is leadership, confirmed by Pr Tom, Pr Edward, sis Hannah, bro, Jason Chan, & sis Wai Wai.

All along I do know that my calling is leadership, but all along I thought my leadership can only be exercised in the worship team, I was wrong until recently God have to send people to tell me that.

I sense that God still wants me to remain in the worship team and at the same time, achieving His new calling in my life.

How am I gonna do that?

Well, campus ministry have welcomed me into it. HooRaa!!!

Now, its either I do it or I die. I mean literally!!! DIE!!!

You guys know why??

Because my Father in heaven gave me a calling of worship, but it died down because I’ve failed in learning to play any instrument and thought/assume that the worship calling was ‘just in my dreams’ kind of thing.

But later it revived back when I was 15 when I first learning to play the guitar in the youth camp.

And never have I imagined that I shot up real fast without taking any guitar classes.

IT MUST BE GOD THAT HAVE ENABLED ME!!!

And have realized that……..

THAT WAS THE TIMING TO FULFILL THAT CALL!!!

If it wasn’t for God’s calling in my life, I would have committed suicide when I was 7-11 especially with all the discriminations and ‘many-cry-alone-nights’ I’ve faced from all areas of my childhood life. I had no reason to live on.

And here I am after 5 years later since 15 yrs old which is the most fulfilling period of my entire life, 1 year of lack of opportunities-on-&-off (to be built up in guitar skills and worship leading), 1 more year of CF worship coordinating, 3 years of active involvement in the church worship teams.

In these 5 years, it was the most rewarding, satisfying, and fulfilling years of my life. It gave me a sense of purpose to live on.

And now, it’s a new season and a new God’s will for my 20^th year after 9th/02/09.

Its either I do it, or I die. THIS IS THE TIMING & THE SEASON FOR A NEW CALLING!!!

So that’s why, Campus Ministry is a stepping stone for me, and is convicted that its God’s will in my life.

And I have decided to follow Jesus all the days of my life.

And that includes not looking for the one woman in my life for this season.

Cause I believe…

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these will be given unto you as well.”

Matthew6:33 (NIV)

Therefore, I urge all you, who ever are you, to pursue Jesus and fulfill God’s will in your life. There’s nothing in this world that is so satisfying as to this. Besides, nothing in this world can last, but will fade. So pursue the things that can last forever!!! Pls be more farsighted and look in the things of eternity!!!

To Him be the glory forever and ever…

AMEN!!!

Joshua Lam – “I will do it.”

P.S – sorry that I sound like a journalist/reporter or its official at the beginning part. This is what will happen when long time no blog.

08/12/08 with Bro Joe and lovely families!!!

2008-12-09T04:57:00.000-08:00

My mentor : Bro Joe Goh

Yesterday I had an awesome time with Bro Joe & family, and Bro Kok Jin & family.
I was invited for lunch with the families at PSC (Penang Swimming Club)
It was great hanging out with some of the generational zoners.

Bro Joe and Sis Elaine

Bro Kok Jin & family
Okay okay, enough said, lets feast!!!

The restaurant.

Choosing what food to eat.

The views from the retaurant.

Joel son of Goh (right) , and ...wat's his name again??

The baby, sooo chubby u knw!!!

Well, I had a great time hanging out with them
And this post is a form of showing gratitude to Bro. Joe and family.

That's all folks!!!

2 Christmas trees for a 2oo-great Christmas season.

2008-12-09T04:32:00.000-08:00

Merry merry Christmas, 2x the trees, 2x the fun!!

This year's Christmas comes abit special.

My mom decided to setup 2 Christmas trees by herself (isshh, arrgghh...without waiting for me!)

Well, one is downstairs, and the other one is upstairs.

Downstairs at the living room.

Now, upstairs next to the bedroom.

With lights now ofcourse!
Well, 2x the trees, 2x the fun, 2x the clean up and its usually me!!! Hehehehe!

Thank God for Christmas!!

'Pretty' vs Inner beauty

2008-12-05T19:40:00.000-08:00

So...which is more important??
For those who are christians, "yea yea inner beauty is more important, but......."
And normally ppl say, " oi ! he/she is cute/accurate(chun) man!"

How do we view beauty?
How do the world view beauty?
How do God view beauty?
What kind of beauty are we talking about?
What do i mean by being 'pretty' and having Inner beauty?

Well, what i mean by being 'pretty', is how the world views beauty.
So far so good???? Not confused?! Pls dun b!
The world always talks about the outward appearance.

Those girls who are blessed to be born beautiful will always get chased down by majority of guys
Am i right guys? AND girls??
Wearing the pretty outfit or 'less' outfit?!
Putting up lots of make up.
Doing the trendy hair.
And people would spend Gs or more to go for beauty centre to look beautiful.

Isn't this beautiful and desirable?
Is this good? Ofcoz it is!
BUT is this the most important??
Absolutely not!

Should this be the most IMPORTANT reason why we marry someone?
You darn sure, it's no!!!
But isn't it tempting to marry a girl becaues they are beautiful?
OHH YESS.

This will lead us to...

Inner Beauty.
What do God mean by inner beauty?

"All a man's ways seem right to him, but the LORD weighs the heart"
Proverbs 21:2

"I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve."
Jeremiah 17:10

"I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity..."
1 Chronicles 19:17

So what do God mean by the word heart? Its inner beauty.
U see how God stresses on inner beauty?

Abraham's wife, Sarah for instance.
She is veerry old, but the king of egypt & abimelech fell for her, an old lady.
(Try to picture Brad Pitt & J.Lo fell in love with your grandma and grandpa, LOL)

But no, it is not because of her outer appearance, but its because her inner beauty.

One may have outer beauty, but may not hav inner beauty; may have inner beauty but not outer beauty; but little....have both!!

Normally, people always looks at the outer appearance, but God looks at the heart, where the inner beauty comes from!

Why inner beauty should be the most important reason?
Well, is beauty eternal? Can it last when ur soulmate is already 55yrs old?
And if it can no longer b an asset, what can we replace it with?

It is the inner beauty. You want a spouse who loves, cares, mature, strong, provides(yes, for woman too, pls read Proverbs 31:14-18) ; of noble character, dignity, integrity; with a gentle & quiet spirit.

Such things, can never fade and such wife is the crown of a men; and the men the trophy of woman.

You may think it is old fashion & impossible. Well, if u THINK that it is old fashion and impossible, then it will 100% guranteed it is impossible.

Its not that i asking all of us to marry old ladies/guys, but to have a change of mentality and attitude towards beauty!

Enough said, actions counts the most!!!

I used to stress on appearance, but as time passed by through God's training.
My attitudes is changing.
Im less attracted to appearances, but rather more towards the inner beauty of a woman.
I more attracted to matured woman of noble character now.

If i, an arrogant, egoistic guy can do it.

SO CAN YOU!!!

Just for warm up.

2008-11-07T10:11:00.000-08:00

Wow, its been a long time since i blog. Havent been updating for nearly 1 1/2mnths adi. Now oso rusty adi to blog.

Well, jz to briefly share what happened recently.

I had lots of tests, assignments, and presentations for the past weeks. But 4 major assignments and 2 major presentations is coming up next. Gonna be even buzier these months. God have mercy on me.

To be very frank, i don't have any particular interesting topics to share these days too.

Unless you all can ask me to talk about a specific item, then i can hv a topic to blog lor. Hahahahaha.
You all can actually ask me anything. Im a very open person (i do draw lines ofcoz).
You all can feel free to pose a question or topic at the "chatterbox" on the right side of this page or click the "saying" at the bottom of this post.

Will be happy to share. :-)

See y'all!!!

Step Up !!! And pounce!

2008-09-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

Whoo hoo!!! I m back on my feet now. 3 months has passed since i stood down from ministry. I m back, ain't black, and bad!!! What i hav been through this 3 months was a strong training time.

God totally brought me down to the lowest point of my life. Tho ppl see me like still ok, but in the inside... its just a bundle of frustrations, and depressions. During this 3 months, there are many aspects of my life that God hav actually dealt with. Especially my characteristics, personalities, attitudes, conduct, mindset/mentality, spirituality, ministry, family, studies and other social life, and my sins (sadly, not physical). I hav to admit, i was doin not good these 3 months, there hav been so many compromises of the flesh and failures but i learned alot. These times were the peak of my depression since my taiwan trip, i felt so confused about almost everything.

Last time i was more competent, i was more anointed. But since Taiwan, my spiritual life and anointing have detriorated as God is beginning to take it away especially these 3 months. Why? Well, i was responsible for it. Why? Well, its because my biggest issue in my life its my pride. He had to break me to the lowest point of my life including taking away His anointing from me. When i read my bible, little answers are given, when i worship on my own or publicly... there was no improvement of my situation. These are the times that God was silent towards me. I felt useless, and pointless, and dry...totally DRIED UP. I told God, that these 3 months was useless, and that i m still in square 1 and aren't moving forward. But my idea of moving forward, was wrong. Little did i know, my Father is tearing me down to build me up.

Its when we are at our lowest that when we feel totally incompetent and useless that God is gonna lift up. So that we wont recognized that we can bear fruit by ourselves, but only through Jesus. (See John 15). It was my pride that have blinded me in saying "I can do it, if i try harder, and if people would change their...". Little do i know that all power comes from God, only the Lord giveth away, and the Lord taketh away. It was king Nebuchanezzar that God hav brought him to his lowest, and his understanding was like of an animal. My Father in Heaven actually have to stuff me with much humble pies, and my recipe for my humble pie its by swallowing my own pride in order to prepare me to learn and change, my lowest point (for now). And like that king, i recognized the power of God in my life, and that wherever i m today, can only be determined by God. He is the one that can anoint & empower someone.

Not only that, i was indulged in sin so badly during these 3 months. I felt so weak spiritually, and always made the wrong choice in sinning. Spritually i was dying... I lost my identity in God, tho i wen to the church camp, frankly...it did not really help me, but more of a strong reminder...but I needed something more...

During saturday (27/09), God used terence in so many ways in ministering to me. And have helped me understand so many things tat i was going through. I did not recognized my identity as a son of God. Yes yes, i knw i m a son of God, but it was just the surface. Through Jesus, i can now call Him 'Abba' Father. And have heighten my love for Him so much more. God even reveal to Terence a vision of the Father taking my hand, leading me out of the fog. That vision explains the reason i was so confused in so many things, and my lost-ness. And true enough, my mind is revived. And not only that, i felt so strengthened on saturday that i feel like i ain't gonna fall into sin for a long time. Well, i did not achieve these greatness, but my Father gave it to me. Tho He have taken my anointing away, but he has given me a double portion of anointing now.

The 3 months was a nightmare of discipline from God, and the last week of these months was my revival... and BREAKTHROUGH. In these 3 months, i learned to dialogue with God (yes, u heard me). I dun hear Him in audible voice...but it is the Spirit of God that talks to me in my heart and let me feel His presence of peace and affirmation... confirming me with many people's prayers, and their visions. Tho it looks stupid talking to myself, but... to HELL with what people say, man are so shortsighted and blind and judgemental. Not only that, in the last week, I now have a different view of God right now, and its awesome. No words can describe how beautiful, and amazing God is, its always a mystery when it comes to the spiritual realm.

And it doesnt stop here, to bro joe and sis elaine, chan tai low, pr tom, bro mike & sis hannah, bro terence & Courageous CG. You all are my strongest supporters through out all these, thank you for your love, kindness, wisdom, knowledge, encouragements, prayers, advises, prophecies, and visions that u have received from God and have in obeying God, supported me in many areas.... (Pls dun feel left out if i din mention ur name, u all played a part, without u, there's always a missing puzzle.) Some of u have even welcome me warmly into ur homes and hav let me feel God's love so tangible through all of u. Thank you...

Well, ofcourse, the enemy will try their very best in bringing me down right now... but they aint gonna succeed... coz i got the blood of Jesus given to me!! There's power in the blood of Jesus, that no enemy has it. Theologically, its not just for the washing of sins, but power of victory.

Now i hav poured out all i wanted to poured out... i hope u can hav a clearer picture of what i've gone through. Enough is said about myself for now, i hope this post will encourage you spiritually and mentally. May the love of the Father be so tangible for all of you. Godspeed!!!

Past dating life

2008-09-14T02:24:00.000-07:00

Well, m gonna tell u guys & girls a secret (which is not goin to be a 'secret' anymore) about me when i started dating. and i have a great confession to make in which i have regretted during my past dating life. And my motives of dating was untrue and objectively unright, in which i will touch on that later.
I actually had 4 x-gfs before, 1st one was when i was 7 and she was 8 (yes...i knw). And my first kiss was when i was 7 too (yes i knw too....stop laughing!), n yea ofcoz she is the one who kissed me. The 1st one was the best among the 4, infact the 1st one is when i learned the most. Unproudly i wanna confess that i dumped all of them because i jumped in too quickly and found that its a "bottomless pit", except the 1st one, she left by moving back to Taiwan.

But anyway, my point is that when i was very young.... i already had a great desire to get married... n for me, at that time... was a 'taboo' for me to get married at 30yrs old. If you ask me, 'how can u hav such a desire' ? I will genuinely, frankly answer 'i hav no idea'. I indeed I also have (almost countless) one sided unconfessed infatuations (puppy "in-love"), and still am having it(pls dun be surprised, jz a heads up). I had many heart breaks before, sampai almost numb adi liao. Some, is when i was in infatuation, that girl liked someone else and manage to get that guy for themselves. Some is...u get the drift! I have also, spoke to many experienced ones, read a few books, listened to many audio sermons and talks, and have found a many of common conclusion about every 17 year olds dating intentions...and regretfully was mine too.
The conclusion is that unless you have strong experiences, right mentalities, attitudes, principles, 'maybe' even strong and right childhood training and disciplines. Every 17yr (not just 17!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls read between the lines) old guys AND girls' intentions of starting a BGR (boy-girl-relationship)/date is just to satisfy guys' sexual needs and girls' emotional needs.

Some guys i knw do fall into the emotional needs, and some girls do as well fall into the sexual needs too. But mostly, the guys always has sexual needs and girls, the emotional needs. And many of some of us (especially me) teenagers, think that we all already "know" all this that "we will not get hurt" if we actually start a BGR. And there is heart breaks after heart breaks, and even some of us lost our virginity!!! (I am a still virgin thank God for His discipline)

The FACT is, we think we know but we REALLY don't know, let me repeat again WE REALLY DON"T KNOW!!! WE DON'T!!!
I told u its gonna be rough....!

Let me touch on the 'needs' of both sexes and see why it is actually true.

Lets start with the guys (girls, u wont like this). The sexual need. Scientifically speaking, the male's peak period of sexual drive is during puberty and during teenage period. During puberty, testosterone develops rapidly and find it hard to control and contain it (girls, pls understand this), and always will fantasize about having sex with a girl by "detailed" imaginations. Does this sound familiar kar? Well it should, cause Jesus said so,

"But I tell you that anyone who looks at a womanlustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart."

Matthew 5:28 (NIV)

Spiritually speaking yeah, sexual desperation can actually consume one sense of right and wrong. So girls... You've been raped...........in heart. And girls, no matter how or what happens, generally when a boy approaches u (trying to date u), the boy can only think through his penis. Even the nice ones!!! And would willing to say anything, or whisper anything to your ear to get laid including "I want to marry u" or "I will never ever,ever,ever....(101 times) stop loving you"....but thank God, christian boys...hahaha....alot better i would say because of the influence of the church, and also because of Pastor Tom. XD!!! Sorry guys, yes offense!!

Well, i must admit... im not a girl, but i managed to talk to some. For the girls (generally), are the emotional needs. A need to be felt loved (especially u have lost your father), a need to feel beautiful, a need to feel secure and comprehended, a need to express yourself wholely to the person who supports you especially when u are sad, to be cared and concerned, to be held warmly by a 'man', and etc...I could go on till they banne me from Blogger.

You see, guys can have sex without the emotional aspect, but girls... you need to feel loved by the "man" in order to "make love" to him. And thats basically the main reason that you fall into a relationship, you want to feel loved, and would sometimes...do "anything" to feel loved.

Its not that sex is not important, but infact you enjoy sex more than a guy can enjoy (trust me on this one, i've done my research!). And girls, boys do know this... and would use this to our advantage to get what we 'need'. So please, for Jesus' sake, and do us guys a favor... pls don't accept a boy like us who is still immature.

For most of you who have great emotional needs. Once he/she gets what he/she needs/doesn't get what he/she needs because of your refusal, he dumps you, but u still love him/her...then how?? You all DO know what i mean, it tears u apart!!!!

Back to the girls.
You think you can find emotional security from a boy who plays PS II and thinks he can play a grown up game called "sex"??!!! What you need is not a boy, but a man who can take care of himself and futurely you, financially, spiritually, responsibly, in purity, and u can name some more. A man that considers your purity his priority!!!
But ofcoz not all guys, just merely want sex, there are some who search for the "One" by using dating as a test pen, and when he finds out that if the girl she is dating is not the one, then... he says goodbye... and the girl leh??

Its near to the end now, for me... i regrettedly have my part to play in spoiling other girls lives... and they in turn have their own part in spoiling mine too (you can ask me yourself about it). For me personally, i am more towards the emotional needs than to the sexual needs. And i m someone who always look out for the "one", and i must learn to place my trust in God.

So lets continue to put our trust in Him for our future spouses, only He can give you your perfect match. Apart from all these knowledge now, let us ask God for wisdom to put it into practice, and for those who have been practicing and feel like giving up... lets perservere with self-control and discipline. And lets shift all of our focus to focus on Jesus alone and pursue righteousness, purity, godliness, virtueness, and the Will of God in our lives. I have just recovered from depression of loneliness, because it has indeed dawned upon me to shift my focus on Him.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Matthew 6:33 (NIV)

STAY STRONG my friends!

WARNING!!!

2008-08-27T02:38:00.000-07:00

Pls be warned that I'll be continuing my series on Dating these days, and continuation from my friendster blog. Jz a heads up, hehehe!

Here's the link to my 1st blog in friendster as an appertizer of what's ahead.

http://joshualam89_2007.blogs.friendster.com/famous_for_heaven_feared_/

Drop me some critics if u want to, i m prepared!!!

BRING IT ON!!!

Paradise National Worship Conference '08

2008-08-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

One word... AWESOME!!! This conference is the first international worship conference in Malaysia, and yeah it was held in Penang Christian Centre (PCC) by Paradise Comunity Church (PCC too). Its so awesome to actually learn and interact with the team. I was actually brought to a whole new dimension of what worship is and have actually experience a breakthrough in my life especially in the area of worship. As for most of u knw, my calling is and has always been the worship ministry.

We first set out with my group of Frontliners young youths on 20/08 Wednesday and 21/08 Thursday.

Thursday during lunch.

There were sessions where all of us will be there.
Which is mostly brought by Pastor Matt Heins.

And have praise and worship together.
And later we will split to attend workshops of choices.
For me, Steven, and Delton, we mostly attend the leadership workshops.
Leadership like, how to lead a worship team, leading worship, how to raise musicians and etc...

Pastor Mark is the worship pastor in Paradise Church and one of the major contributor of the birth of Planetshakers, he was the one who gave the lectures on the leadership sessions.
WOW!! I am really amazed by his leadership skills and his core values.
Normally leaders are either in 2 extreme of, goal-oriented and people-oriented.
He is competent in BOTH !!
I believe he is seasoned by God's training adi lar.

He has actually provided alot of answers to my bunch of questions
through his workshops concerning leading the worship team.
Truly am blessed by him, thank God for him.

This is Nathan as the drummer.

Jay
2nd worship leader and guitarist together with Pastor Mark.

Chloe, with an awesome personality.
The pianist and the vocalist teacher.

The Bassist, the groovy-fun-cool guy.

That's all folks!!!

These people are great men and woman of God, who is so skillful but yet so humble people. They have a heart of worship and a heart to raise a new generation of worshipers.

This conference indeed hav taught me lots of lessons and stuff in my leadership, ministry, and skills too...

For those of you din go, guess what?!...
Pls feel guilty, and next time just hope that there'll be another one, by Hillsong?!!
XD LOL ROFL

Desire

2008-08-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

Desire dwells within the heart. The driving art of our actions. Motivating the motives in us. That will result in us a gratification. If intentions are translated into actions. Appears in forms of interests, hobbies, passions, wants & needs, and aspirations.

Desires CAN BE summarized into good & evil

Evil desires have caused
1. money to be the root of all evil
2. the fall of man, the birth of sin in man.
3. allowing the devil to invoke temptation in us.
4. greed, slander, gluttony, murder, sloth and anger
5. lust to rape, masturbation, porn, adultery, incest, perversion, and fornication.
6. waste of time from meaningless entertainments
7. the will of God in a person's life to be obsolete
8. the successes of the forces of darkness
9. crimes rates to its peek
10. corruption of authorities
11. And so the list goes on...

Above all, theres a formula:
Evil X desires = evil intention = evil + sin = gratification of flesh = death

Colossians 3:5
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.

2 Timothy 2:22
Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

1 Peter 1:14
As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance.

2 Peter 1:4
Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

Romans 1:24
Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another.

Romans 8:5
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.

Galatians 5:16
So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature.

Ephsians 2:3
All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath.

1 Peter 2:11
Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul.

2 Peter 2:18
For they mouth empty, boastful words and, by appealing to the lustful desires of sinful human nature, they entice people who are just escaping from those who live in error.

I THINK I HAVE MADE MY POINTS CLEAR !!!

denying self, to live for Jesus everyday.

2008-08-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

For a while it has become my struggle to be a faithful christian.
Indeed its what every christian faces, some point in their lives. U know,
like in a sense u want to do what u r 'supposed' to do but u 'feel' like u dun want to do it, therefore u couldnt do what u r supposed to do because u r too caught up with 'distraction'?!

For christians, we need to pursue godliness, righteousness, virtue-ness, and in achieving the Will of God in our life. But in order to do that we need to read our bible, pray, and worship everyday. And not to mention in these 40 days, fasting. BUT, in order to do that...we need to have that DESIRE to do so.

The problem is, i frankly do not hav that desire, but i WANT to hav that desire, but my desires is mostly of flesh.

The word of god always challenges us to die to selfish carnal desires, and walk in the Spirit. Live a life of godliness, righteousness and of the will of god. But what if i dun want to, and what if i cant??

Sooner or later, God later revealed to me about my root of the problem, and that is our "desires".
If our desires is on the wrong stuff, it will actually lead us to the wrong stuff, but if our desires is on the things of God...then it is a powerful drive that pushes us to run the race.

But how to HAVE that desires that is of God?????

There's something i have learned in a tough way that i find it helpful. And that is to pray for God to put/install in me desires in pursuing the things of God. And to actually ask God to remove the selfish desires from me.

Its a secret key for me, and perhaps a reminder for all of u.

Besides, i've spent months searching for a way i can be inspired to have godly desires.

Jz ask for it, and u will receive.

Only god can grant it to us.
And its simple and fast to pray these prayers.
Less than a minute only, but must ask with sincerity that u want to hav the desires.

It may not b an overnight thing too, but we hav to have hope and we ourselves act on it by faith.

If we ask for it, and dun act on it, it will be like "faith without works" is dead. We ask for it, but we do the opposite, its jz aint right.

So i jz wanna challenge and encourage all the christians in the house to stay strong and walk in Spirit, godliness, righteousness, and in the Will of God. Dun giv up when rough seasons has come.

Joshua Lam

mind boggling juggling

2008-07-28T20:58:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl,

Wud like to intro a new game. it is the game that exercise ur brain power,
creativity, calculations/estimation, and physics skills.
Its cool.

Magic Pen

try it, u wont regret it.

drama series

2008-07-25T20:17:00.000-07:00

Man, guess im so stuck wit tv series (some is Ktarng download n gimme wan).
My fav tv series are:

Prison Break
Heroes
How I met Your Mother.
Big Bang Theory.
(More coming up)

Is it actually wrong in the first plc to chase series like above?
Well genuinely, i knw it is ok if we are having control over it.
And not letting them control me.
But if we are addicted to it and we spend so much more time in this
movies instead of the time wit God.
Then i dun believe that it is ok any longer.

Well, this is another form of satisfying myself wit entertainment.
And im actually standing on the wrong side of the fence.
I m really hooked up wit those series.

When i met up wit Pr. Tom yesterday, he tol me
(he confirmed what i've been convicted bout)
that we need to die to self and to live for him.
And fulfill the Will of God in my life.

Man, guess i hav to do this the hard way.
Not to totally cut tv series out of my life.
But to take control of it, and not allowing it
to take control of me.

Wel, thx for reading.

Step down.

2008-06-29T01:32:00.000-07:00

Today 29/06/08, is the last day of ministry until 3 months later. Its a painful decision which i need
to make (not want to) especially on a busy season like next month, with so much events that i cant get involve such as, Youthwave Fishhooks and SEW (Spiritual Enrichment Weekend). For those of u who know me, I m very actively involved in various ministries. Ministries such as, the worship ministry, head of programs in the Frontliners, S.W.A.T ministry (Serving While A Teen), and etc... Sadly is that its for my best that i should pause all my ministries. Reason is because its a season for God to actually deal with a particular area(personal issue) in my life which is not pleasing to Him. And i have set myself apart a period of 3 months to reflect, to evaluate, and to be dealt by God. If this area is not to be dealt with, no point for me to keep on serving Him. That's why i need to step down. I wont move forward.

Its like a taking a step back kind of thing, so that i can take 3 steps forward, and God will even multiply that too if i choose to honor Him.

The ministry that God has particularly placed within my life, is, has, and always will be the Worship Ministry. He has chosen me. This is my Purpose that God has given me in my life. And He has no doubt given me a vision about it (perhaps one of these days i might post out my vision of worship) that is so big, impossible, and farsighted that it is almost limitless to visualize and imagine it, and i CAN achieve this vision ONLY if i follow what He says and walk CLOSELY with Him. And God has given me an understanding of worship that is so intense and passionate since three 3 years ago.

But anyways, i still have a long way to go, so much things in me must be refined and developed. So much things to learn in all aspects of life. So many experiences ahead for me to experience. And i strive and hope that, i will grow in spirit, virtue & conduct, experience, maturity, wisdom, stature, speech, knowledge, understanding, skills, and also body (doing my body building now).
What i need to do is that i need to offer Him my vision, my talents and gifts, and my aspiration in
order to grow and remain in Him.

John 15:1-8
¹"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. ²He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes^[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. ³You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. ⁴Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

⁵"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. ⁶If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. ⁷If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. ⁸This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

In conclusion, yes... I m down! Coz its my passion to serve Him, and i ... cant ... yet...

Volume 2 : Good news

2008-06-13T03:37:00.000-07:00

So where will u go? Heaven?

Or Hell?

Lets see, where will we go?! Let us answer a few questions to see where we are goin shall we?

Have you lied even once in your life before (white lies is counted too)?
Have you stolen anything before? All thief are to be cast into hell.
Have you commited adultery before? Matthew 5:28 " But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart."
Have you hated anyone before? Matthew 5:22 "But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to his brother, 'Raca, ' is answerable to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, 'You fool!' will be in danger of the fire of hell."

I've only addressed to only 4, what bout the other 6? (I'm speaking bout the 10 commandment if those of u do not knw) The 10 commandments must not b broken, even if one breaks only one of them, breaks them all and is guilty in judgment and in hell. And scriptures and history tells us very distinctly that God Himself "The Great I AM" wrote the 10 commandments with His own finger.
Even if we break 1 only, God is pure and holy. He cannot even stand a single tiny sin. And for that, we are cursed in eternal damnation.

See, all of us are sinners and have fall short of the glory of God. How can we go to heaven if we are sinners??!! This is real bad news isnt it?!

And some of u may say that if one do good things in life, one can make up for one's guilt of sins.
Bullshit!!!!
Why? Let me give u a scenario. Picture this.
Lets say u have raped and killed someone 5 years ago and was caught after 5 years of investigation from the investigators even though u have change and no longer that type person anymore. And now you are standing guilty in front of the juries and the judge. And the judge is saying, "Because you are found guilty of breaking the law, you can either pay 100,000 or a death sentence will be given to you."
So try to picture yourself saying this, "For 5 years i have done charity and do so many good things now, can you let me go now, i have really changed from a bad person to a good person, can you please release me from my crimes?"
Do you actually think that the judge will let you go even though u hav changed?
The FACT is NO. You have no choice but to be sentenced to death coz u cant pay the fine, and your good works will not eliminate the fact that u hav committed a crime
What more do you think that God the Judge of all judges will let you go even though you have changed?

Jude 1:14-16 (NIV)

14Enoch, the seventh from Adam, prophesied about these men: "See, the Lord is coming with thousands upon thousands of his holy ones 15to judge everyone, and to convict all the ungodly of all the ungodly acts they have done in the ungodly way, and of all the harsh words ungodly sinners have spoken against him." 16These men are grumblers and faultfinders; they follow their own evil desires; they boast about themselves and flatter others for their own advantage.

Revelation 20:11-13 (NIV)

The Dead Are Judged

11Then I saw a great white throne and him who was seated on it. Earth and sky fled from his presence, and there was no place for them. 12And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne, and books were opened. Another book was opened, which is the book of life. The dead were judged according to what they had done as recorded in the books. 13The sea gave up the dead that were in it, and death and Hades gave up the dead that were in them, and each person was judged according to what he had done.

So there's no escaped from God, He's everywhere, All Knowing and He will punish all those who have sinned. If an earthly judge will do that, how much more God Himself. Because once we man hav sinned, we become enemies of God. Well this is the bad news i hav for all of us.

Now the Good News
(Go back to the judge-and-you scenario) You are now helpless, you are unable to pay the fine, no one can help u now, and tears started to fill ur eyes because knowing that you will be sentenced to death even though u have changed. But out of no where, suddenly the noise of curiosity and the unusual fills the courtroom. And you looked up to the judge, he was taking off his funny wig and his robe of a judge, and walk down from his large throne judgment seat to you, handing u a check of 100,000, and he just sold his house to come up wit this large sum of money.
And he walked back up to his seat, wore back his wig and robe. And proclaimed "I can see that now you can pay the fine, you are now set free!"

Yes, it is impossible for us to work our way up to righteousness. Thats why only God can actually save us from eternal death. God who hav took off His robe of Glory, King of kings, and Lord of lords, 2,000 years ago and came to this earth in a form of a man, born of virgin(born without sin), to be the Saviour of the world by offering His life up for us so that we may be saved and live eternally(heaven). He has bought us over from death to life, sin to righteousness. He is none other than Jesus Christ Himself:

Who died on the cross for us, taking upon Himself ALL the sins of the world , and hav faced the full wrath of God. Only Jesus can do it,no tom-dick-and-harry can simply do it because Jesus is perfect and sinless. Only someone who is pure and without sin can redeem us.

Galations 3:13
3Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: "Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree."

Hebrews 9:15

For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new covenant, that those who are called may receive the promised eternal inheritance—now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant.

And after He died, He was raised again 3 days later, tats y we celebrate Easter. (Not because of some dumb bunnies, and colorful eggs.)

Acts 5:15
The God of our fathers raised Jesus from the dead—whom you had killed by hanging him on a tree.

Roman 1:3-5
...regarding his Son, who as to his human nature was a descendant of David, and who through the Spirit of holiness was declared with power to be the Son of God by his resurrection from the dead: Jesus Christ our Lord. Through him and for his name's sake, we received grace and apostleship to call people from among all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith.

Because of His resurrection, we have obtain Forever LIFE.

Now you may ask "Why?" He did it! Well, He did it because He loves you and me even before we were born and the universe were created, He had countless thoughts bout u and me. And did not want you to be eternally condemned but have ask us to have a love relationship with Him, God.

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

You want to receive eternal life? Well, simple just believe
that Jesus is your Lord & Savior, and receive Him into your heart. And repent and turn away from of all the sins u are doing, for it is because of your sins, He has to died for u.

YES, this is the GOOD NEWS people. So lets do this, pls scrol all the way back up to the beginning of this post that begin with the 1st question. And answer that question yourself.
If you can...!!!

All glory goes to our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Good News vol 1!!! No REALLY, its Good NEWS!!!!

2008-05-31T10:29:00.000-07:00

Well, something for y'all to look at actually. Pls do not take this offensively (i knw SOME of u wont).
If u can answer this question. Then it will be GOOD NEWS, or.... it can be bad news but its never too late "yet" to turn ur bad news into GOOD NEWS.

okay okay...the question...
1. Have you ever wondered where will u go to after ur death?
There's plenty of people saying all sorts of stuff bout where the dead goes. But which is which ar?
But to be fair and general to everyone. There are 4 places ('concepts' wil be a better word to use) in summary....
1. The Famous Heaven
2. The Feared Hell
3. The extinction (u r no where, nothing, gone case, unconscious)
4. The next life/reincarnation

Well, basically i'll keep it as practical as down-to-earth as it can be. If u believe in the existence
of God, you wouldnt be believing in the extinction. If u do not believe in a god at all (you must be in buddhism) but to the "enlightened one" u must be believing in the reincarnation till nirvana, or if u're a hindu then u'll believe in karma cycle till u achieve oneness with brahman.
If u do not believe in any god at all (atheist), you will most likely blieve in evolution and extinction. So in all, let me divide the 4 afterlife destination stated into 2 categories.

1. Heaven/Hell
2. Extinction/reincarnation

Lets go with number 1 1st. If u believe in heaven and hell, where do u think u will go to?
Heaven? Hell? Well, if u ARE sure that u r goin to heaven then u already have BELIEVE in the GOOD NEWS.
BUT, if u r not sure, then this post is most probably is for u to make sure which place u r goin to. Im no fortune teller, but im jz a messenger bringing the Good News to YOU. But if u knw u will be goin to hell and u're happy bout it, and thinking that heaven is a plc full of a**holes, then u must b a satanist or other occult member.
Now comes the end of this post of Volume 1, next is volume 2 which i will address the people who are unsure of where they are going.
*out*

Get set, ready..... Go!!!!!

2008-05-29T12:10:00.000-07:00

Wah lau eh, i really suck at blogging. Hope everyone will be kind enough to forgive me a no0b (i dun usually use this word) . But anyway, welcome to my very 1st blog post in blogger.
Pls allow me to communicate my purpose of blogging. But 1st things 1st, I did not agree in blogging
as for me personally i 'thought' its a waste of my precious time to blog being a nuissance to other ppl to come and read my blogs (no offense Ab) . but as time past by i recognized the power of
blogging in a positive way. Indeed blogging can be used as a tool, to influence, to inspire, to encourage, to impart, knowledge, understanding, wisdom, and experience that is selfish to be kept
for only myself. Especially my experience with Jesus Christ my Lord. Man, it can even be used to bring the Good News to every passer-by. I do not seek attention or anything or even popularity pls do not get me wrong. But just simply sharing what i've got.
For those who are closed up all the time, may your knowledge, understanding, wisdom, be rotten in your own brains in your own craniums.
My posts will be based on my understanding, point-of-views, principles- and stands. Some may
include truths based on the Word of God which i gladly will share out.
I am fully well aware of any criticism i'll be facing in my future blogs.

Anyway, tats it for now, comeby again if u think u shud.

Joshua Lam
Famous in Heaven • Feared in Hell
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